Tea-Fast Day 5: Rise of the Phoenix
(Thanks for helping to provide the perfect description @Xavier)
Events from: 3/15/2013
I feel a sense of clarity now that I have completed five days going on six without tea. I did give into the temptation by way of tisanes and herbals but only a few times, though it isn’t tea so I do forgive myself. It seems what I was missing was the ritual of tea. It is the act of taking time to enjoy a hot cup whilst reading, working, anything really that I missed the most. After realizing that, I had a renewed sense of conviction and confidence. I can do it! No matter what the naysayers say. I can make it to the finish line.
It is exciting to know that what I was addicted to this whole time wasn’t the tea itself but the ritual. I admit having a hot beverage was very satisfying as I sat there in contemplation over this what seemed pointless tea-fast. What I know now is that the fast was not pointless. It is almost a spiritual journey even I didn’t know I was on. Fasting put into perspective what it I desired most. As @Xavier put it best, I am like the “Phoenix rising from the ashes and reborn.”
I can’t believe I am saying this but I am glad I decided to fast. If you had asked me earlier, I would have said that I made a terrible mistake, that this adventure was pointless. Seriously, why did I give up tea if even for a day unless I had no other choice? Now, I am a brand new woman. I am reborn and realizing that tea is more a part of my life now than ever and will always be. I now not only enjoy the leaf but see more clearly how much I also enjoy the ritual, the conversation, the variety, tea friends and community. I have a new peace about my passion and a clearer understanding.
Today I learned I am NOT addicted to tea. I am NOT A SLAVE to tea. Tea is my welcomed companion along for the journey by my side.